Rainy cinema

Hi hi!
Today was a rainy day... but it was different and good ~
Now I'm in a good mood. I went to the cinema with some friends, and between those friends was Lucas.
We saw One Day, and first of all, I have to say I'm a bit disappointed... I don't know, I expected more; besides, I found it too much sad, I wasn't ready for something as tragic as hell!
Despite that, it was beautiful, good frames and I like them as couple since the first time, but mostly, I love them as friends, they're special together, totally.

After that one, we saw Tintin (yep, we saw two movies one after one). I found it AMAZING. Really. That was pretty awesome, I didn't find any flaw. The animation is very realistic and every single small detail was wonderful.
Well, of course that something quite fantastic was the fact Tintin always succeeded, he's a kind of superhero hahaha.

And, the best thing today, was being with him in the cinema, I was sited next to him, and we were so close; we were joking and laughing together.
I really think we have that something called feeling... the shit is that he has a girlfriend and he's in love with her. G R E A T, hurra for me!

Can't help it

Maybe I was too much good... but when it's about him, I can't help but do whatever I can. 

That's it.

Am I being a fool?

Maybe, but sooooooooooooooooooorry, I think he deserves my help (well, he deserves all the existing help in this world) houhouhou

I really can't help it

Stupid Halloween Night

Great, I'm here, at home, with a blanket, watching a movie and chatting with my best friend Didis.
And... guess what?
Lucas is watching a movie too, yeah; but with his wonderful girlfriend Hattie, at the cinema, after having dinner together as a good and lovely couple.
This sucks.

I really need something to get me busy, to forget about this big shit.

Confusion at the end of class

I really don't understand him... sometimes I feel like I'm important to him, that he wants to talk to me and he enjoys it, that he tries to get my atention; and then, I go where he is to tell him something and he replies me like I was whoever he doesn't care about.

In fact, today I was in my english class and I remembered when we slept together on summer, with one of my best friends, Jessie, in the same bed. It was nothing special, we were friends by that time, and that was soooo funny; when I opened my eyes in the morning and the first thing I find, was him, his closed eyes.
Of course now it's different, my feelings have changed a lot, and remembering this situation is something... I find cute, adorable.
So, when english finished, I saw him out, but he was talking with a friend, so I didn't went to his place. Then, I felt a kick, and voila! He was behind me, with his sweet smile.

The conversation was something like:
Me: Hey! You don't know what I remembered before! Do you remember when we slep together that day when you got hyperactive?
He: Oh.. yeah
Me: Ohmygod, that was really funny, when I woke up and I saw your sleepy face just in front of mine hahaha
He: No! when I woke up I saw you sleeping, it was me, not you!
Me: What? I remember your closed eyes and your opened mouth!!
He: Well, I don't know, maybe you opened your eyes and then you fell asleep again
Me: maybe... but I haven't seen you hyperactive since then.
He: I'm NOT hyperactive, that's why.

And the conversation finished in that point, he told that last sentence and it was over, anything else.
I'm shocked.

At last!

Yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, finally, he talked to me!!!
(and yep, HE started the conversation ~ )
Now, I can go to bed satisfied
hohohoho ♫♪

Crazily Jealous

OMG, this is killing me, I know, I KNOW, she's her girlfriend, but... jhdgfjzsdjgflsfgdjf  I can't help being like this. I'm angry, and I don't like it at all, 'cause this would mean I'm liking him more and more...
This is terrifying, disgusting.
What shall I do?
Besides, I'm completely dumb, I'm sitting in front of my monitor, looking at the facebook's chat, waiting for him to talk to me. Embarrasing, I know; this is a waste of time, I'm aware, and despite that, I'm still waiting.
gggggggggggggggg, I'm hating feelings right now.

I'm waiting, stupid, and you don't fucking care about it.

Who you think you are to dare being every single second on my mind

I have to explain some things, first of all.
You have to know I didn't choose this fucking feeling. If you think I did, you don't know anything, really.
Actually, I don't know when this started... I just realized when I saw him terribly sad; suddenly I felt his pain in my own body. Does it make any sense? Because it was just like this.
Well... I like him, I have no idea how much, but I like him. I tried to help it, but I couldn't...
I guess when it's about feelings, we can't do anything.