Hattie and me were really good friends, since we were 4, and we understood each other perfectly.
And, when we started high school, she met a boy, Lucas, and since I saw them flirting in the corridors I told her ''I know you like him, and I'm sure he likes you too''.
Of course, I was right, and they started going out early, around this time last year.
But, the reality is that Hattie had had another boy before Lucas, she had been so addicted to Mathew and to the relation they had; but he had left her and It was clear she hadn't forgotten him.
So... she had a night affair with Mathew while she was with Lucas, but at least, it was when they weren't together officially. Obviously, Lucas didn't know anything about it.
Piecemeal, I was becoming more and more closer to Lucas, we become such really good friends!
And, during summer, Hattie cheated on Lucas in some occasions, with different guys; he didn't know it, either.
She told me that she didn't know what to do with Lucas, that she didn't know if she liked him or not, that she didn't know her own feelings.
After some time, she broke up with him, she told him that she wanted to spend a time alone; but this wasn't so long. She wanted her boyfriend back; she told me that it was because she missed him, that she loved him, but I know her perfectly, and she is so so so jealous, I'm sure she was afraid of him loosing his feelings for her and starting to feel for another girl. I thought it was unfair, She was... playing with him.
The more I knew Lucas, the more I felt bad about the things Hattie was doing; untill the day when Hattie kissed a guy from our high school, a guy who knew about Hattie and Lucas, and, for the first time, she told her boyfriend about the affair she had.
He didn't know what to do, he talked with me several times, telling me I was a true friend and that he could trust me; and he was so jaundiced, Hattie had made him feel like a stupid too much in love.
He told me the story by chat and phone, and he sounded really affected, but I didn't imagine how destroyed he was. I discovered the following day, when I saw him in the high school. He seemed a living dead.
It was that moment, that fucking moment, when I realized how much I cared about him; when I saw his face full of sadness, I felt terrible, I said to him some silly words to make him smile, but it didn't work at all, and that was the first time I couldn't do anything to make him laugh.
I had to get away, because I felt my tears wanting to go out of my eyes; it was so weird, I didn't understand why it was so hard for me, it wasn't my thing! I didn't have to feel like that!
I wasn't who thought I liked Lucas. It was my friend Angie. When she saw me strange that day, she said to me ''Honey, I'm starting to think you're feeling something for him, despite the fact you don't know it''.
Aaaaaaaaaaaand, that's how it happened...
(if you're wondering if Lucas forgave her... yes, he did)
